Note: The original was written in 2006 but this is the updated 2018 version.
Content warning: gender dysphoria, cisgenderism, allusion to sexual assault
This room is my confessional
And you are all my witnesses
That I am afraid – I am fucking terrified
To be…a woman
That I am terrified
I’ll never be a good enough man
And we are born into this world with certain roles laid out for us
We are born into this world with certain roles laid out for us
And they tell me, “There’s nothing to fear, lil kid,
You just ARE a woman.
You just ARE a man.”
But they are lying through their toothy smiles
Their eyes undressing and oppressing me
Because if it’s all about just BEING a gender
Then how come I can BE a gender so BADLY?
How come everything I do and say
Is not macho enough or some lady-like way?
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