Throwback Thursday: Confessional

Note: The original was written in 2006 but this is the updated 2018 version.

Content warning: gender dysphoria, cisgenderism, allusion to sexual assault

This room is my confessional
And you are all my witnesses
That I am afraid – I am fucking terrified
To be…a woman
That I am terrified
I’ll never be a good enough man

And we are born into this world with certain roles laid out for us
M
We are born into this world with certain roles laid out for us
F

And they tell me, “There’s nothing to fear, lil kid,
You just ARE a woman.
You just ARE a man.”

But they are lying through their toothy smiles
Their eyes undressing and oppressing me
Because if it’s all about just BEING a gender
Then how come I can BE a gender so BADLY?
How come everything I do and say
Is not macho enough or some lady-like way?

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